I wasn’t aware I was addicted to Xanax. I guess it makes sense, considering I was on it for 25 years. But I didn’t think about it because I only took the prescribed dosage, never more than that. For those who don’t know, Xanax is a short-acting benzodiazepine given for panic attacks, and it hits…
Month: June 2023
My m-m-m-m-medication
I’m not trying to ’cause a big s-s-sensation I’m just talkin’ ’bout my m-m-m-medication… Big Pharma loves mental health so much that they want everyone to know that they have a pill for whatever ails you mentally. By taking a pill and reducing the emphasis on psychotherapy and psychosocial treatments, Big Pharma wants you to…
The Long Overdue Letter
Joelle, When it comes to relationships, we stay with people for all kinds of reasons. All that we really were, was what we needed at the time, not what we wanted to be. I remember the night we met like it was yesterday. We were at Coney Island, and your sorority happened to come in…
Please stop pressing the panic button…
Today was a bad day, the dish du jour was a panic attack with a side of depression, and I forgot to order a drink. Panic attacks suck. Like, really, really suck. After that first major one hits (and mine was a long time ago), you live in fear of having another, which can bring…
Faith and Mental Health
As many of you know, I am currently in college, getting my bachelor’s degree in psychology. The class I’m taking now, Approaches to Studying Religion, got me thinking about what role religion or spirituality plays in mental health. I am agnostic, which gets confused with atheism a lot. The main difference is that Atheists don’t…
Rocky Road and Pizza
I can’t eat rocky road ice cream. It makes me nauseous. The ingredients aren’t the problem; I like almonds, chocolate ice cream, and marshmallows. I just can’t eat them all together. I also have this weird ability to smell even the slightest hint of natural gas hyper-vigilantly. By now, I’ll bet you’re asking, “Where the…
An Open Letter to My Younger Self
Dear Todd, I want to apologize for not writing to you before. It’s not easy to turn around and face the past, especially the one where you still live and suffer, but I feel it necessary that we need to talk. So, here I am. First, you need to know that you’re going to make…
Music is a Salve for the Wounded Soul (and that’s not hyperbole)
Anyone who knows me or has bothered to read my bio (over there, to the right, 2nd paragraph —>) knows that music has played a HUGE part in my life. It’s probably played a big one in yours as well, in some form or another. I bring this up because it occurred to me as…
You shouldn’t know these things about me…
I decided to try to write a post while I was experiencing severe depression, and this song popped up on my anti-anxiety playlist (Are those lyrics I posted for the title ironic to this blog? I’m not sure about that one, and I don’t want to fuck that up by saying it is (see Morrissette,…
You Are Not Alone (but they need to understand you are)
A big slogan they’ve been using for mental health awareness is “You Are Not Alone.” I guess the sentiment is nice enough, being that you don’t have to suffer by yourself, with the good old “we’ve got your back” and shit like that. Having a support system around you sure as shit helps keep your…