Every day is a fucking battle. Medication that isn’t doing its job is also causing brain fuzziness, which causes anxiety that also triggers panic attacks which are made worse by having a Parkinsonian essential tremor, and this leads to taking Valium to calm the fuck down, and this works. Still, then there’s the addiction to…
Category: Panic Disorder
Onward, Forward
I had a panic attack tonight. It usually starts in my belly, but this time it started in my neck and shoulders. I couldn’t remember the grounding techniques my therapist had shown me, so I had to find some on Google; no easy feat when you’re in the midst of one. I actually went with…
My First Panic Attack
A Brief Prelude My parents were going through an incredibly bad divorce, of which my sister and I were collateral damage. With myself being the oldest, I was getting the brunt of the effects, especially from my mother. She talked badly of my father, had incredible mood swings, etc… When she was depressed, she cried…
X is for Xanax
I wasn’t aware I was addicted to Xanax. I guess it makes sense, considering I was on it for 25 years. But I didn’t think about it because I only took the prescribed dosage, never more than that. For those who don’t know, Xanax is a short-acting benzodiazepine given for panic attacks, and it hits…
Please stop pressing the panic button…
Today was a bad day, the dish du jour was a panic attack with a side of depression, and I forgot to order a drink. Panic attacks suck. Like, really, really suck. After that first major one hits (and mine was a long time ago), you live in fear of having another, which can bring…
Music is a Salve for the Wounded Soul (and that’s not hyperbole)
Anyone who knows me or has bothered to read my bio (over there, to the right, 2nd paragraph —>) knows that music has played a HUGE part in my life. It’s probably played a big one in yours as well, in some form or another. I bring this up because it occurred to me as…