Every day is a fucking battle. Medication that isn’t doing its job is also causing brain fuzziness, which causes anxiety that also triggers panic attacks which are made worse by having a Parkinsonian essential tremor, and this leads to taking Valium to calm the fuck down, and this works. Still, then there’s the addiction to…
Category: panic attacks
My Xmas list for 2023
Oh, ’tis the season to be jolly, or so they say. But let’s lay it out straight—here’s what I’m dreaming of this Christmas, and trust me, Santa, it’s not your usual sugar-coated shit. First off, how about a week when my brain decides to take a fuckin’ break? No panic attacks or depression, just me…
Onward, Forward
I had a panic attack tonight. It usually starts in my belly, but this time it started in my neck and shoulders. I couldn’t remember the grounding techniques my therapist had shown me, so I had to find some on Google; no easy feat when you’re in the midst of one. I actually went with…
My First Panic Attack
A Brief Prelude My parents were going through an incredibly bad divorce, of which my sister and I were collateral damage. With myself being the oldest, I was getting the brunt of the effects, especially from my mother. She talked badly of my father, had incredible mood swings, etc… When she was depressed, she cried…
The Brilliance of Ted Lasso
“I think things come into our lives to help us get from one place to a better one.” – Ted Lasso. Ted Lasso – He’s not just a made-up persona; he’s become the guy everybody wants to have a pint with. This man is like sunshine in human form, overflowing with kindness and goodness. You…
Talk Therapy Part 2
This is part two of an edited therapy session I had so those who don’t go to therapy can see how it goes. M and K are my therapists, and T is me. T – I couldn’t do it to them. If anything, I just would rather just have a fucking heart attack, you…
Talk Therapy Part 1
This is part one of an edited therapy session I had so those who don’t go to therapy can see how it goes. M and K are my therapists, and T is me. M – How are you doing today? T – Better than I was yesterday. M – What was going on yesterday? T…