Every day is a fucking battle. Medication that isn’t doing its job is also causing brain fuzziness, which causes anxiety that also triggers panic attacks which are made worse by having a Parkinsonian essential tremor, and this leads to taking Valium to calm the fuck down, and this works. Still, then there’s the addiction to…
Category: Being Bipolar
Onward, Forward
I had a panic attack tonight. It usually starts in my belly, but this time it started in my neck and shoulders. I couldn’t remember the grounding techniques my therapist had shown me, so I had to find some on Google; no easy feat when you’re in the midst of one. I actually went with…
Talk Therapy Part 2
This is part two of an edited therapy session I had so those who don’t go to therapy can see how it goes. M and K are my therapists, and T is me. T – I couldn’t do it to them. If anything, I just would rather just have a fucking heart attack, you…
Talk Therapy Part 1
This is part one of an edited therapy session I had so those who don’t go to therapy can see how it goes. M and K are my therapists, and T is me. M – How are you doing today? T – Better than I was yesterday. M – What was going on yesterday? T…
Recognizing a Fellow Warrior
I want to give a quick shout-out to my fellow Mental Health Warrior, Shaley Hoogendoorn, host of the podcast “this is bipolar” (click the link in the image above). You can also find her on Instagram @this.is.bipolar. A few quick words: The commitment, passion, and dedication Shaley displays for mental health awareness is such a…
Random Thoughts and Questions
Since I’m working on transcribing one of my therapy sessions, and it’s taking longer than I anticipated, here are some random thoughts and questions that came to mind while I was weed-whacking almost 20 acres, with a few statements thrown in just because: What if bipolar people are tapped into the emotions of all of…